we were having project cookie in pauline house for the last few days so every morning i had to walk there myself. the road to pauline's house is the same road i use to walk to school/tuition/sunshine's house/suzie's house/steffi's house/sin yoon seng/dk court and a whole bunch of other random places.
so simply walking down that road brought back truckloads of crazy memories, and suddenly the need to get back to normal was overwhelming as well as the unmistakable feeling of failure. the two people i failed the most is.... myself and time. if time was the proverbial old man, he'd be shaking his head at me right now.
and i really have say sorry to myself. after all, i couldn't blame anyone else for what happened now, it was my fault all along. you thought it's a story about you and him, but turns out it's a story about him and her instead. you're just passerby A. promised not to cry, just wondering where the hell did it all disappeared to.
"you might be a big fish in a little pond, doesn't mean you've won"
from Coldplay's Lost. "just because i'm losing, doesn't mean i'm lost, doesn't mean i'll stop." right.
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hey dear, fret not! im going through the same phase now and i wanna let you know that i'll be here for you k??? lets just move on with our head held high, and to acknowledge the fact that having a man is not a neccesity thats worth your dignity and heart. may God dominate our life!!!:D
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