Monday, July 11, 2011

torn :(

torn between two extremes, that is.

yesterday Ungrateful Bitch got yelled at by some mad cow uncle. pretty scary, cos he was like "F*** you la! Go to hell!" and other crazy things like that. it was so freaking LOUD and the whole mall was like staring. actually i still don't know what happened. but my supervisor said when she went there to ask, UB teared up.

ok, confession time.

when i heard the yelling, the first thing that came to my mind was.... "HAHA, finally". remember what i said about the "KARMA'S A BITCH, RIGHT?" thing i'd like to do to her face? yeah, for the whole day, i'm torn between "haha, you deserve that, bitch!" and "no, yan, you cannot be so bad..." for the first time in a long time, i'm so imbalanced. the scales in my heart are like see-sawing so rapidly it's a wonder i'm not insane yet. oh yeah, i also thought like "hahaha, last time you'll always have me when something bad happens, let's see who you have now?" and other evil thoughts.

*sigh sigh sigh* i still need some time to balance all this negativity out. and i'm ashamed at my inability to recover myself as fast as i wanted to. how come i can do it during G but not now? God, please help me. :(

oh, my boss went to Singapore already. he's gonna work there and will only come back once in 2 weeks or something like that. SAD.

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